Friday, April 25, 2008
my worst fear
I was confronted by my worst fear in my own bed last night. I am terrified of spiders.
Last night as I crawled into bed, I pulled up the blanket to cover me when I saw a black object dart quickly away from me and run over my leg. I shot out of bed and franticly patted my whole body down to check for more spiders on me. When I finally built up the courage to catch and squish it, it was so fast I had a hard time chasing it on my bed.
Having a spider underneath my covers with me, touching my body is truly traumatic. A bed is supposed to be a safe and secure place, a retreat for when you are frightened. Spiders are so creepy because they invade your intimate spaces, and violate you with their gross millions of eyes and unnatural amount of legs. I wonder, has this little demon been with me a few days? I have had two dream in the last two nights where I have accidentally eaten bugs. It makes me reconsider the myth that spiders crawl into your mouth while you sleep
I can still feel the spiders 8 creepy little black legs crawling on my body.
Last night as I crawled into bed, I pulled up the blanket to cover me when I saw a black object dart quickly away from me and run over my leg. I shot out of bed and franticly patted my whole body down to check for more spiders on me. When I finally built up the courage to catch and squish it, it was so fast I had a hard time chasing it on my bed.
Having a spider underneath my covers with me, touching my body is truly traumatic. A bed is supposed to be a safe and secure place, a retreat for when you are frightened. Spiders are so creepy because they invade your intimate spaces, and violate you with their gross millions of eyes and unnatural amount of legs. I wonder, has this little demon been with me a few days? I have had two dream in the last two nights where I have accidentally eaten bugs. It makes me reconsider the myth that spiders crawl into your mouth while you sleep
I can still feel the spiders 8 creepy little black legs crawling on my body.
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Even if one didn't have a fear of spiders, to find a creature of any sort in one's bed is disturbing!
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